I am happy to of completed your reading from the little information provided a lot has come to light.
I personally use the Thoth Tarot Deck for this is the deck first gifted to myself by an old friend and I have studied and used this deck for practical purposes for twenty years. When I am doing a reading I take the cards in my left hand and my wand in my right hand and I invoke I A O which is a magickal formulae of Tipareth and H R U which is the proper magickal formulae of this aeon. And then the deck is shuffled in full.
There are no requirements for us to use reversals with this deck.
The spread which is the lay out of the cards will be as such: Card 1 will represent yourself this had been decided by myself by a interpretative understanding if the decan's by way of your astrological sun sign. Cards 2 and 3 are key to understanding the situation and your persona, (note here that the persona may well be how others perceive you or how you portray yourself to others). There is a specific sequence as to how I place the cards, thus on the upper left are cards 13, 9 and 5 and cards 4, 8, and 12 on the upper right. These will be interpreted from right to left and may be two potential paths for future guidance or if complimentary they are read fully from right to left. Should the cards on the right ever be in conflict with those on the left then the cards on the right would suggest the path you would follow should your life continue as it is, and as such the cards on your left suggest the alternative probability. Cards 6, 10 and 14 will assist you in any decision and give further psychological insight and implications, often they will reveal strengths of your own or others around you. Cards, 7, 11 and 15 show matters beyond your control e.g. unconscious forces, dreams, karma, destiny. So please sit comfortable, breath with me and take a step on the journey on the quest and listen to the words of a Wizard.
You are the Knight of Disks, (Card 1 you our hero and querent), For your sun is the 13 degree of Virgo. Your hair and eyes are dark and you gaze over fields fertile, you have been used to hard work and often you have put aside more intellectual personal leanings. for the sake of your career, you have steadfastness that sometimes seems to of plodded on this journey looking the horizon perhaps in hope of better things and patiently awaiting the works you have spent so long waiting to mature. Your recent years and circumstances have been those concerning the accumulation of material wealth not necessarily for your own ends, (Card 2 The 10 of Disks), indeed it seems likely that you have labored much in time hard work and loyalty to ensure your peers some considerable financial collateral. It is for this reason that much has dissatisfied you within the harsh world of the, "rat race". You are left there looking outwards wondering what have you gained from all these experiences. It is from this perspective that you are realizing another fruit of your life. That what works you have given has not ultimately served you in either a material or psychological level. Despite this you have investigated plodding on and continuing to play their games. Have you not truly gained the acumen through your life to do something better? You know you have! In other circumstances it would be you in the comfort of complete material wealth... Such is your mind confident in these matters it surprises you with the continues circumstances, (Card 3 Art), truly this is a most beautiful card, and is not wondrous that often this is how you are seen by others? Skilled in your craft, capable of reconciling opposites and making them fit nicely together. This is the face that you have worn the masque the suit of the world to be acknowledged and accepted, was it honest to yourself? For yes that was one skill in your bag of tricks and you look into that bag and know at least in your heart of hearts that you are capable. (Card 12 The Hermit) And here you are withdrawn from current events and there are times when it is more than wise to do so. You have sat back taken stock, looked deeply with introspection into your heart. You have looked around you seeking support and guidance and then as your eye has turned within that little spark of illumination has shown perhaps that after all the wins and losses you are the key to your own success for yourself and not for some shadowy man in a dusty boardroom. Is it not a sign here that your own element of earth once again comes to the fore. The Hermit himself is powerful in your own sun sign of Virgo.. Surely this is a worthy omen, and yet we cannot live in the ways of the world if we remain removed from it. (Card 8 Six of Disks) Again the taunt of material success is before you, what is it? For sure again the earth element here appears to shine. Is it not from the withdrawal of The Hermit that you have found your germ or seeds of a new idea? Yes, however with your past accomplishments you are ever so tempted to return to the path of the short term. The success that you would obtain again would only serve others! (Card 4 8 of Cups) Here should your path return to the cycle of the known, that is to keep doing what you have always done, it makes logic that the results of the past will continue to cycle. You could use your previous experiences to continue to provide success for others, yet in your own heart you would not be satisfied. Here the strong astrological influence of Saturn would surely drag back the foot that already is slow. Imagine if you will your own earthy yet fired element and pour all of these cups over the earth and the hot sticky mud that would be formed. There is an alternative. (Card 5 3 of Swords) And with all changes it does not come without a price. And to understand the message of this card will take more than your normal intellect. I will not bamboozle you here with the Qabalistic factors however I will attempt to say that while again Saturn bears a heavy influence on this card and its title is SORROW, it is not without solution. have you not wracked your mind for solutions? have you not let those nagging doubts of your own mind deter you from an alternative path. You know from your Hermit time of withdrawal there is a light of on idea deep inside that you have been working towards. Yet time after time the swords of air and intellect have held you back. The solution is this. Remove the maddening reason, let the mind give way to a consciousness higher than itself. In Sorrow itself there is a meditation like that which made the man called the Buddha realize his enlightenment. So, the unhappiness of lifes circumstances can be changed by your own higher mind. (Card 9 Sun) Every Man and Woman is a Star. What more positive and indication do we require that you are being guided to form your own destiny. Look at the image of the sun see the freedom expressed by the two dancing children is this not an emancipation, a liberation, the freedom to move at your own volition within the realms of the laws of this world. So should you go in your own direction under your own will what awaits...? Remember you need not, you can always return to the life of before, no doubt after a different fashion with the bitter taste left in your mouth. (Card 13 The Magus) As I sit here across from you now I raise an eyebrow, a half hidden smile plays across my mouth. Almost as if I look into your eyes their is a mirror of a flash of familiarization. Are you not seeing what I am seeing. Go now slowly walk to a mirror somewhere in your house. Bow your head a little and close your eyes. Again in an easy moment raise your head and look into that mirror, look into your own eye. And there you seen it that inner spark, that knowing that you can be the master of this quest. Now you understand. "The true self is the meaning of the true will: know thyself through thy way! calculate well the formula of your way! Create Freely; absorb joyously; divide intently; consolidate completely. Work thou, Omnipotent, Omniscient, Omnipresent, in and for Eternity" Crowley
So it would appear not only are the skills in your past bag prepared, you will have the WILL to use them.If the above does not assist what more can we divine from your cards? (Card 14 The Moon) Certainly the choices remain yours and the changes will be voluntary and the change will be important. Here the pull of the mother moon on the waters of the unconscious mind are strong. Remember that often the darkest hour is just before the sun rises at dawn. (Card 10 7 of Cups) Here is the poisoned reminder of delusional success, those times when you may perhaps of supped at numerous cups of false pleasures in an attempt to convince yourself that life was all good, those times need to be left behind for the movement forward cannot continue or return to such moments of illusion. Well they can of course again that is your choice. Or perhaps, some temperance in the future a reminder as I said that what appeared once as gold was not your own. I know that you have had concerns over the well or ill dignified aspects of the cards, well any negative connotations are lessened as we turn the next card. (Card Six The Princess of Swords) The Earthy Part of Air , or the Earthy part of the intellect if you will. Perhaps this represents a part of your own minds capability to over come some of the less pleasing parts of the past, or perhaps there is a woman friend or otherwise who may assist you in doing so. Here the influence is one of definite dexterity and the wisdom and management of material affairs. So if this relates to your self so be it or if to another also so be it. This influence though also tends to be frivolous and cunning. So as the mist clears the reflection also clears and still we have a little to consider, many things can be changed by the will of mortal men, somethings will never change unless we ascend beyond the paradigms and prisons that we have allowed to surround us. (Card 7 The 8 of Wands) Assured as much in your past was part of a lifestyle there has since childhood been that part little used or explored as you would of liked. Yes there has been numerous challenges and difficult lessons to be overcome yet as you mature you begin to feel that those parts not used or expressed are feeling so much more comfortable. And this card always makes me feel so much better another personal favorite. Such is the nature of dreams that when they have not been satisfied they occur over and over. And now these energies are at bursting point they streak as multi-coloured lightening bolts across the sky. And use them you will, for you will need to for as I said there will always be that rational part of you that stops you dead in your tracks. (Card 11 9 of Swords) And this is that part that nagging doubt that makes you lay in your bed at night and worry. It is part of your nature this is your karma it was also written in the cosmos the very day you were born. Let not these moments of troubled mind turn against your own heart of that of others, for you are a person who likes perfection, yet life will not ever quite be perfect. Still the cruel aspects of this card can be put aside by the 8 of wands influence and that of the next card. At the positive this suggests a level of faithfulness and personal patience. (Card 15 2 of Wands) Is this your Destiny? In terms of your own energy I would say so. No longer under the influence of others free to act within your own will. Independent energy. Yes if that was a potent for a destiny then it is indeed a positive one. Of course there was always the prior alternative. The reading tells me you have know success. Yet something holds you back the challenges thrown at you. Especially in your youth. I took the liberty of looking a little further into your astrological chart. Some details of which are below. Should you require any further assistance please do not hesitate to get in touch.
Kind Regards, Jonathan MacLean-Lambie Astrology